You're an extraordinary person for standing beside me through all this.

You’re an extraordinary person for standing

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Your future has me in it.

Your future has me in it.

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You will survive the surviving.

You will survive

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You will never be selfish for putting your recovery first.

You will never be selfish

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You were right. I was wrong. Please forgive me.

You were right. I was wrong.

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You tell me when you feel the need for even one drag of a cigarette, and I'll distract you. Would flashing you work?

You tell me

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You never stop advocating for me, thank you.

You never stop advocating for me,

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You matter. You matter a lot.

You matter.

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You make your own choices. But I plan on reminding you every single day, or as often as it seems necessary, that relapse is not an option.

You make your

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You make me feel celebrated not tolerated. How do you thank someone for that?

You make me feel celebrated not tolerated.

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You don't have to have it all figured out to move forward.

You don’t have to have it all figured out

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YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE. And anyone who's told you different, was wrong. (and a total fart)

YOU ARE NOT a failure

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Work hard in silence, let your success be your noise.

Work hard in silence,

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When you're winning the addiction recovery war, but fighting the other voices, choose to let yourself find joy again. (Because quite honestly you have a super hot smile...)

When you’re winning

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When someone's walking through a storm, sometimes your silent presence is a greater gift, than a steady wind of words.

When someones walking through a storm

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When it feels like one storm just moves its way into another, remember...some of the best sex happens when it's dark...

When it feels like one storm just moves

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When I think of someone I want to spend the rest of my life with, I always think of you.

When I think of someone I want to spend…

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What you've done today...It was enough.

What you’ve done

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What if you decided to start liking yourself just the way you are? What if you discover you're totally awesome already? Yes...even with all your details...

What if you decided to start

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It's not what I feel for you, it's what I do not feel for anyone but you.

It’s not what I feel for you,

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I wish love was like volleyball, you call "mine" and everyone backs off.

I wish love was like volleyball,

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I know it feels like you're constantly swimming upstream and against the current, but you're not alone. I'm 100% right there with you.

I know it feels like you’re constantly swimming upstream…

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They say that you can't always trust the person that you love, but that you always love the person you can trust. I'm hoping to bring both to what we have. Feel free to give me any pointers on how you'd like that to look.

They say that you can’t always trust

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They say life becomes simpler when you learn to accept an apology you never got. Maybe. But that's not what I want for you when it comes to what you can expect from me. You deserve to be able to hear me say, I apologize. And I'm genuinely sorry. I really truly am sorry. Will you forgive me?

They say life becomes simpler…

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Todays agenda: I'd like to encourage you to do what inspires me.

Todays agenda

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Yeah today was lame, so was yesterday...and the day before yesterday. But I'm game for still looking forward to tomorrow anyway. As long as you're in it with me.

Yeah today was lame, so

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Thought: The first ones who offer to help others are usually the ones who know what it's like to need a helping hand. Grab those hands when they reach out to you. Don't hesitate or second guess it. Just do it. Going at it alone is highly overrated.

Thought: The first ones

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There are days when you refuse to own you're details. When you refuse treatment and disappear inside your own world. I choose to forgive you those days.

There are days when

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Thank you! Because you seriously matter to me. (like a lot, a lot)

Thank you!

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Bed pans, bed baths, bed sores... I can deal with those, because anytime YOU and a BED are in the same sentence, I'm good!

Bed pans, bed baths card

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There isn't a single part of your body I don't adore.

There isn’t a single part of

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I like to think of your physical tremors as just a sign that your brain is registering how much I love you.

I like to think of your physical tremors card

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Don't be afraid to take your meds, because I promise... I'm staying right here.

Don’t be afraid to take your meds,

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Some will focus on what you are. Others will focus on the scars you bare. What holds my attention is the fact that you're still swimming.

Some will focus on what you are.

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Some days just bring it all back to the surface. You may notice I'm still here on those days too...

Some days just bring it all back

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Strength isn't about how much you can handle before you break... as much as it is about how much you can handle after you're broken. So yes, you're very strong.

Strength isn’t about how much

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The storm will pass, but if it doesn't... Breathe, dry off, and rebuild, and promise not to live in fear of every dark cloud.

The storm will pass.

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I brought the storm, now I'm bringing the apology. Sorry babe.

I brought the storm

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Stop that. I'm going to shut up now.

Stop that I’m going

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I kinda turned things upside down and around and made it all about me, when we were supposed to be talking about you. I'm sorry. Still wanna talk?

I kinda turned things upside down

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Stay close to anything today that makes you glad you're alive.

Stay close to anything…

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How am I supposed to be productive when I can't stop staring at you?

How am I supposed to be productive…

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I will stand by you no matter what.

I will stand by you no matter what.

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Sometimes you have to let go of a dream in order to do whats necessary so that you can live long enough to create new dreams. IT'S HARD! But we've done hard before.

Sometimes you have to let go

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Honey we're not going crazy. I like to think of it more as sometimes we just slip into normal.

Honey we’re not going crazy.

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Sigh... I was a real ass wasn't I? Sorry...

Sigh… I was a real ass

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We are in recovery here. As such, this is a SHAME FREE ZONE. Thank you for your cooperation and understanding.

We are in recovery

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I'm not sure either of us realized what life with all my details would cost us when we opted to put those rings on. But for what it's worth, I can't imagine doing this every day without you.

I’m not sure either of us

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Relapses... yep, they pretty much suck.

Relapse… yep,

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You're not purring, and I know it's my fault. Sorry.

You’re not purring,

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You aren't a disappointment. You are great and if people get down on you for not being perfect all the time, then bite their faces off. You are super great and faces are high in protein. Super great!

You aren’t a disappointment.

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A pearl grows in the dark, hidden inside a hard unglamorous shell, deep at the bottom of a body of cold water. And apparently it all starts with a single grain of sand. It takes years of being put through all of that in order to become something people highly value. Life has treated you harshly. But you are my pearl.

A pearl grows

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I'm having a bad pain day. Maybe you noticed... Sorry for how it throws things off.

I’m having a bad pain day

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I know I overwhelm you sometimes... sorry.

I know I overwhelm you…

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One doesn't discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time.

One doesn’t discover

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It hasn't been our best day. I have some regrets... I just want to say I'm sorry.

It hasn’t been our best day

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Not everyone gets what your brave moments look like. I just want you to know, that I choose to celebrate those split second decisions you make to face what you couldn't a minute ago. (even seconds of bravery deserve a fist bump by my way of thinking.)

Not everyone gets

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No one loves you more than me.

No one loves you more than me.

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No matter how long its been, there are still times when I think of you and suddenly it gets harder to breathe.

No matter how long it’s been,

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New meds... ya just gotta love'em.

New meds… ya just gotta love’em.

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Tell the negative committee that meets inside your head to sit down and shut up!

Tell the negative committee

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My saying I'm disappointed DOES NOT MEAN I'm saying you're a disappointment. I need you to get that...

My saying I’m disappointed

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If you think missing me is hard, you should try missing you.

If you think missing me is hard,

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Me: let me sleep. Brain: lol no, let's stay awake and remember every stupid decision you made in your life. Me: Okay

Me: let me sleep

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You will make it through tomorrow.

You will make it through tomorrow.

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Love says, I've seen the ugly parts of you, and I'm staying.

Love says, I’ve seen the ugly

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Love is... waking up and seeing you next to me.

Love is… waking up and seeing you…

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I've had to apologize for this so many times, odds are you've lost count. But I'm still going to say it, so add one more "I AM SO SORRY" to the tally. I'm trying, I seriously am.

I’ve had to apologize for this

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Life is way too short to spend another day at war with yourself.

Life is way too short

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I would like to take this opportunity to kiss and make up. I'd also like to apologize too...

I would like to take this opportunity to kiss and make up

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Just for the record, on the off chance you're wondering... I am not ashamed to be giving us another chance.

Just for the record

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Its never been about having the wedding of my dreams... Its been waiting for the man of my dreams. Lets just do this and move on to building dreams TOGETHER now.

Its never been about having the wedding…

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It's been "one of those days," for like three years now, but I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.

It’s been one

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I'm doing my best to walk away from using all the vices I've relied on for so long to keep me going. Its cost me, its cost you. So this is hard for me to ask, but this is me being honest. It's me trying. Can you help me fill my down time differently now? Can you look for solutions to help me with that?

I’m doing my best

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I was bad, I admit it. If you want to put me in time out I'd understand. But would you sit with me?

I was bad, I admit it.

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I want to apologize.

I want to apologize

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I want to kiss you in the pouring rain. But not if there's a tornado. Because if you're going to be swept off your feet, I'm gonna be the one to do it.

I want to kiss you in the pouring rain.

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I like you. Yes, even today...

I like you. Yes, even today.

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I didn't mean to make you cry. Sorry.

I didn’t mean to make you cry.

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I can't feel every place you touch on me, but I know when you touch me, I do feel loved.

I can’t feel every place you touch…

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I appreciate all the extra kindnesses you do for me in addition to everything else.

I appreciate all the extra

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I admit, there are days when the effort to help keep you from repeating one or more of your "habits" makes me feel like a babysitter, case worker or parole officer, rather than your lover. But then you get naked...We go to bed...You touch me like only you can... And dang if you don't refocus me just like that.

I admit, there are days

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I wish I could take away the pain that accompanies detoxing for you. (((HUG)))

I wish I could take away

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They say the way to a man's heart is through his stomach... I screwed up. I want back into your heart. How big of a menu will I be needing?

They say the way to a man’s

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Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach.

Do not let the hero in

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Things got pretty heated today. I'm surprised the fire alarm didn't go off... Once you've cooled off, maybe you can forgive me?

Things got pretty heated today

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He loved her of course, but better than that, he chose her, day after day. Choice: That was the thing... I choose to keep working on us.

He loved her of course,

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You ARE my happy thought...

You ARE my happy thought…

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Your yesterdays have the power to sabotage all your tomorrows by distracting you from living all your todays.

Your yesterdays have the power

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I will love growing old with you.

I will love growing old with you.

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Goal for this week: Let's give other couples a reason to want to be just like us.

Goal for this week

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Thank you for getting past what you thought you'd never get over. I'm sorry I put you in the position of even having to.

Thank you for getting past

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I fully intend to spend forever and ever with you. So far so good!

I fully intend to spend forever…

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What are the odds of my fortune cookie saying you forgive me? I feel lousy about hurting you. I'll try harder, I promise.

What are the odds of my fortune cookie…

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I was a bit of a prick today and I'm not happy with myself. Can I ask you to forgive me?

I was a bit of a prick today

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I'm trying to remember everything I said so I can apologize for it all... Can I just say I mean it, I really am sorry for ALL of it, and have you believe me?

I’m trying to remember everything I said

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Food for thought: There is nothing about a caterpiller that implies it's going to be a butterfly... You are going to be just fine. Cut yourself some slack.

Food for thought:

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Your flaws are perfect for the heart that's meant to love you.

Your flaws are perfect

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FACT: If I could choose anyone to be with, it would still be you.

FACT: If I could choose anyone

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Please listen to my words, and ignore my expressions. I really am sorry.

Please listen to my words,

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Everything will be alright, does not mean everything will stay the same. I'm not afraid for us, we can weather what we need to.

Everything will be alright,

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Everybody deserves somebody who makes them look forward to tomorrow.

Everybody deserves somebody…

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Every love story is beautiful, but ours is my favorite.

Every love story is beautiful,

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I will love you, even the days I don't like you.

I will love you, even the days…

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Well that was embarrassing... Sorry.

Well that was embarrassing

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You're right, I had flaws and dark sides to me even before I started drinking. The alcohol didn't create those, it just showcased them all that much more. I'm working hard on staying dry. But I'm going to try to work on those darker parts realistically too. Thank you for still wanting to let me try.

You’re right, I had flaws

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Don't give up hope too soon. Beginnings are OFTEN tough and can look overwhelming.

Don’t give up

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Congrats! For not walking away from our details.

Congrats! For not walking away from our details.

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I know we didn't see all the details that would become a part of our marriage the day we exchanged rings. My gambling has cost us. I am trying. Thank you for keeping us a couple.

I know we didn’t see all the details…

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I agree right now things seem pretty dark, BUT, we are two people standing together in the dark holding hands.

I agree right now things seem pretty dark,

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I know I damaged the "us" part of trust. I'm sorry. Because I want you and I to stay "us".

I know I damaged the us part

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Crying doesn't indicate that you're weak: since birth, it's been a sign that you're alive.

Crying doesn’t indicate

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I made you feel crappy today. I'm sorry.

I made you feel crappy

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Sorry I was crabby today.

Sorry I was crabby today.

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Courage isn't having the strength to go on... It is going on when you don't have the strength.

Courage isn’t having the strength

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You know I used to count the corks. It was depressing. Now I count your smiles. How many nights a week we hang out now. The conversations as we fall asleep. The number of times a day I hear you laugh. Happy sigh!

You know I used to count the corks

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That was cold of me. I'm sorry. XOXO

That was cold of me.

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Check your road and the nature of you battle. The world you desire can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours. I'm proud of you.

Check your road

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Instead of hanging out in a chatroom, we could meet in the kitchen and make cookie dough. Or we could make love... Kitchens are made for heat...

Instead of hanging out in a

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Breathe in slowly gently deeply, breathe out. Perfect...

Breathe in slowly

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I kind of bit your head off there... Sorry.

I kind of bit your head off

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People say, "If you want the best out of someone, then believe they are capable of great things, and treat them accordingly." So, GET READY FOR THE ROYAL TREATMENT.

People say…

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Thank you for being willing and staying willing.

Thank you for being willing

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Be careful how you are talking to yourself because you are listening.

Be careful how

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Addiction has a root. Whatever yours is, even if you don't know what yours is, we'll figure out how to face it. Because I care, I really do care.

Addiction has a root

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Addict is not your name. I don't call you that in my mind when I think about you, or miss you or want to hear your voice. And I just spoke with your mama, and she says NOPE, that's not what she put on your birth certificate. You are more than just your struggle.

Addict is not your name.

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